Wheres my baby?? October 1, 2011

In a period of 8 days my "baby" went from "toddler" to "big girl". Where did she GO????  It all started September 24th. I tore the house apart trying to find the orange paci. Dave got up and tore it apart with me. We searched high and low and in places we normally wouldnt go. I begged God to allow me to find it. No luck. I was encouraged on sunday to give it 3 days. It broke my heart every time she would ask for it. It still does. She still asks for it. I have one stashed for memory sake and when she asks for it I want so bad to get it out of the drawer and put it in her mouth and cradle her and sing to her and slip back to a year ago. How i miss that tiny little baby. Don't get me wrong i love watching her smile and run around but i sure do miss that tiny precious baby that relied on me for everything.

This is day 3 of no sippy cup. ( and i just bought them!!!) band new ones!!! But i can not find them any where. I have again tore the house apart trying to find it. And no luck at all. I can not think of where it might be. I have looked under and in and around and between and nothing. both are gone. So she has advanced to drinking from a plastic cup with a straw and just like that , JUST LIKE THAT , no more cup in bed ( yea i know thats oh so wrong, but to each their own).

NOW!! Day 1. D-A-Y 1 Amy, Has N-O-T had a diaper on all day. Been without diaper or panties. Has gone to the potty by herself, without being asked or told, has gone by herslef. Who is this child i cradled??? child....did i say child???? Oh my heart. Beth Moore I KNOW could write how my heart feels.

So with all this goodness there has to be  bad right? Yea. Amy for 3 nights has bought nap and bed time. will NOT  stay in bed, has gotten spankings has been put back and put back. nothing works. she has cried and cried and cried. I dont know what to do. I am so scared she will have the same problems as Emma. beyond scared i am terrified... just terrified. I cant remember. Is it normal for a 21 month old to fight nap and bed? will this fade,? will she get back into going to sleep or do i have another SPD child....I dont know. Im praying... praying for Jesus to comfort her at night. He did last night. I finally got her up and layed her in my bed and she fought and then i put my hand on her and prayed to Jesus to please put His hand on her head and quiet her heart and calm her and cmfort her and help her to rest. to sleep. within 5 minutes she was out. Jesus knew both our hearts were weary and came to comfort both. Thank you Lord for coming quickly to calm.

I am at a loss for words to what all has occured in 8 days. what normally would take months if not years...Thank you for Amy Lord.